Our Adoption Saga comes to an end on Thursday..

I have not said much lately because to be honest talking about all that is going does not help me much, instead it just brings me more pain.

On Thursday the 4th, (which just happens to be my Logan's 12th birthday) we are being told that my girls along with the other girls at the orphanage will all be given to their family members and they will leave the orphanage for good.

I have been told three of the girls are not ready to leave just yet but will follow soon after.

I can't even believe we have to come to this moment. One can say my roller coaster ride is about to stop.

We have great concern for the decisions that have been made by the government. There are a lot of unanswered questions that will always go through my mind.

The future of the House of Rose is at stake also. It appears they are going to make changes to how it is run if it is open at all. This brings great sadness to me because the highlight of my life is to go and see those beautiful children there.

I don't understand God's plan for my girls so Terry and I can do nothing but trust Him. We are not sure our relationship with them is over just yet.

Please pray for them. These are innocent children caught in the middle of a political action that is being carried out by individuals that don't know them and don't love them. The girls are going to be hurt the most. We need to pray for their protection now more than ever. All 15 of them.

Please pray for our heart to heal as broken is an understatement of how I feel and for peace and understanding of all this mess.

For now it might be a while until you hear back from me because I don't expect to be able to find out much about the girls once they leave.

I truly appreciate all your prayers through this trying time. Our family has gone through an amazing ride and in the end I know God's plan and His will is all that matters. I have said all along that I want his will for their lives and I do even if I don't' like the outcome.

I do believe this saga will end for now but God can change everything if He sees fit. So for now.... we wait.

God Bless all of you and thanks so much for allowing our family to be a part of yours.

Angie

Happy Birthday Oscar...

Today is little Oscar's 8th birthday. I am very surprised he has made it to see it to be honest.

I have been checking on him since the last time I was there and he is getting worse.

In October when we were there he was in the hospital with pneumonia from going swimming and while he was in the hospital his dialysis tube got infected so he had to have a surgery to take it out and put it back in again.

Last week he got to go home after 20 days.

Today, sadly we called only to find out he is back in the hospital with pneumonia again. This time they just feel it was from the damp weather they are having.

He loves grapes and apples so I sent him some by my friend in hopes to brighten his day.

Please pray for his weak little body. He is hanging on for dear life and today is a sad day for him since he can't talk to his mom because she is still in jail. It's his first holiday without her.

It is sad to know that this innocent little boy is dealing with so many adults issues. Pray he has peace and comfort through it all.

Additionally, please pray for the aunt that is taking care of him. Her name is Evelyn. She was going to college and quit to take care of him. She has no income and has to stay at the hospital day in and day out with very little to eat if any.

Thanks for lifting him up to the Lord.

Angie

This picture is on Oscar's bed. It was taken the first day I met him. I gave it to them the next time I saw them and now it has been enlarged and put on a piece of wood. He keeps it by his bed. The woman in the middle is him mom Francisco. He tells me that was the first day he met his best friend. It makes me cry every time I see it.

It's Over for Now..

I have been struggling to write about our trip since we got home. You can say I have truly been in a period of morning.

I always get excited about going to Nicaragua but this trip I knew in my heart it would change the way I see and feel about this country.

We met on Monday with the new lawyer and he went to Mi Familia on our behalf. Not much came from the first meeting only a second one.

The lawyer pushed Mi Familia for answers and at the end the outcome was not favorable for us.

The girls have been put into this Love Program because there is a family member asking for Isamar. Since the bond between them is so strong they will not separate the girls, automatically giving the dad both girls.

We were told the decision has been made and there is no changing it. We can either adopt another child or take our paperwork back.

As harsh as that sounds that's how it is. It did not matter to them that we have had a 4 year relationship, it did not matter to them that Carmen is not this man's child. It did not matter that the girls love us and want to be with us and not him. Nothing matters. Only that the rules of the program are upheld.

I wished I could tell you that hearing "I'm sorry" matters, but right now it doesn't. My heart is broken and in a million pieces. I feel like I left Nicaragua and betrayed my girls even though I know I have done all I can do.

Additionally, we asked for another child from the House of Rose and was denied that also. No child can be asked for specifically by anyone. All the children in orphanages today will be evaluated and if there is a family member anywhere who will take them they will be given to that person. If no member is found they will be put on the adoption list for those awaiting a child.

At this point in this process we can only wait and call upon the Lord. Terry and I know these girls are ours and at some point they will be. We are not sure what God's plan is right now but both of us are certain we know they are to be with us one day. For now, we wait and pray for these decisions to be changed.

Nicaragua is known for making rules and changing them often. We ask that you pray that those making these decisions will be overturned.

The idea sounds like a good one at first but if you talk it through it is an impossible task for the government to uphold. This country is poor, if they had money to pay families to take kids they would be using it to feed the millions of starving families.

We ask that you pray with us in agreement for the following:

1. The girls will somehow know that we did not abandon them.
2. The girls will be protected when they leave. No harm will come against them.
3. The government will see that the rules they have put in place needs to be altered on a case by case basis.
4. Mi Familia will listen to the girls and their desires.
5. The dad will see the desires of the girls to be with us. Once he get them he can give them back to us.
6. Pray for the many families this affects. We are only one of many families who lost their chances for the children they felt God was leading them to have.
7. We are being told there are people within the government that oppose this program, pray they find a way to overturn it.

For now we wait and pray and try to stay strong. It's heartbreaking to say the least but we are confident that God is in control and we are trusting him to intervene.

I was ask this weekend if we are sure this is God's plan and I can tell you that if I have ever know His plan for sure, those girls are to be in our home. This is a fight against the enemy. The enemy is slowing this adoption down, not God.

Thanks for your moral support and prayers as we go through this process.

Angie & Terry

Our Saga continues...

My faithful friends,

I write to you this night as Terry and I prepare to leave in the morning (Sunday) to Nicaragua to meet with a new lawyer and the office of Mi Familia.

Since the last time I wrote the country has had many changes.

The First Lady of Nicaragua is implementing a process that will basically create a foster care program there and is suppose to help children who are in orphanages now get out and go home to a family member and it would keep kids from being placed in orphanages unless absolutely necessary. There are many good things here and many bad. Families have to want these kids first of all and if they wanted them to begin with they would not put them in the orphanage. Who is to tell? Our prayers for this is crucial.

As for our adoption we will be affected greatly if what we are being told is true. We have heard this week that in fact the father of Isamar is blood related to Carmen. He is suppose to be a cousin. If that is the case the new law gives him full rights to her and does not require him to meet any kind of requirements. I was told this by another lawyer who I asked to take my case. She refused because she says there is no case. We can't win.

Terry and I have felt many emotions this week. We are not sure what God's plan is at this point but what we do know is that He took us down this path and He will continue to direct our steps.

The outlook does not look in our favor but we are certain God told us to go down this road so for now we are going to go and find out what we can and trust God to show us what now.

Please pray for us as we go and meet with these people on Monday.

Pray for guidance, wisdom and peace.
Pray for discernment.
Pray for clear understanding of God's plan.
Pray for protection over my kids and Terry's mother as she takes care of our kids.
Pray for favor with Mi Familia and the lawyers.
Pray for the girls. We want to see them but are not sure if they will allow it.

This trip will be the turning point of this adoption. It could be the final meeting we have.

Thanks for you support and prayers through this process.

God Bless,

Angie and Terry

Update on Prayer Request

Well now that the smoke has cleared it appears that some changes are going to be made in Nicaragua but as of right now it does not look like it will affect us. PRAISE GOD...

Thanks to all of you who have been praying because I believe our prayers have calm the storm for now.

It was in fact true that the broadcast on TV took place but it seems their words were more of this is what we want to do than this is what we are going to do.

Here in the US when a child is taken from the parents they go to a foster home to stay until the parents get their act together or it is determined they can't and that child becomes adoptable.

In Nicaragua there is not such system so all children go directly to an orphanage and stay until the parents get their act together. Most get left in the orphanages because the parents are not willing to change their way of life. Sadly that causes problems for the children because they are not adoptable but they have to live in the orphanage.

It looks like they are going to change that process to stop that from happening.

There is still rumors of closing private ran orphanages but it is impossible for them to do that. Maybe they will only close those that are not being ran up to standards. Who knows at this point? The House of Rose where my girls are is private owned but it is one of the best in Nicaragua so I am no longer worried about it's future.

With all that said, it appears that our prayers are being heard and God is moving the hearts and minds of those in charge to make things better. It does not appear for now there is any more talk of closing the adoptions to foreigners. Let's just continue to pray that those who wanted that to happen are moved from office or completely get a heart change.

Thank you all so much for your consistent prayers. They are moving mountains.

Angie